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  Copyright © 2015 Alicia Rades

  All rights reserved. No part of this book may be used or reproduced in any matter whatsoever without written permission from the author except in brief quotations used in articles and reviews.

  This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places, and incidents are either the product of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously, and any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, business establishments, events or locales is entirely coincidental.

  Published by PaperPlane Publishing.

  Produced in the United States of America.

  Cover design by Clarissa Yeo.

  ISBN: 978-0-9914693-4-5

  To Linda Joy Singleton, whose writing I have looked up to for years.

  Chapter 1

  Chapter 2

  Chapter 3

  Chapter 4

  Chapter 5

  Chapter 6

  Chapter 7

  Chapter 8

  Chapter 9

  Chapter 10

  Chapter 11

  Chapter 12

  Chapter 13

  Chapter 14

  Chapter 15

  Chapter 16

  Chapter 17

  Chapter 18

  Chapter 19

  Chapter 20

  Chapter 21

  Chapter 22

  Chapter 23

  Chapter 24

  Chapter 25

  Chapter 26

  Chapter 27

  Chapter 28

  Acknowledgements

  About the Author

  1

  My knees buckled and my hands trembled as I reached for the door to the school. An invisible weight came crushing down on my lungs as I gasped for air.

  “What’s wrong?” Emma asked with urgency. “Crystal, you look sick. Are you okay?”

  I paused, unable to move or speak because I was afraid I would collapse if I did. The truth was, I didn’t know what was wrong with me.

  “Crystal,” Emma prodded, resting a hand on my shoulder.

  I blinked a few times and finally caught my breath. My voice was hoarse and barely there. “Yeah, I think I’ll be alright. I just have a weird feeling.”

  Once I found my legs, we entered the building. The commons took on a different role today. Instead of everyone seated at tables waiting for the bell to ring, most were crowded toward the far end of the room. It was quieter than normal, too, as if a tragedy had just taken place.

  “What’s everyone doing?” I asked in a near whisper as I stood on my toes to get a better look.

  “I don’t know,” Emma started, but she cut off. “Oh yeah. Remember the fundraiser they’re doing today for Olivia Owen? They must have started already.”

  Now that Emma pointed it out, I remembered yesterday’s announcements reminding students about a fundraiser in memory of Olivia. I knew Olivia’s story. In a small town of 3,500, everyone knew about Olivia’s tragic death that happened last year.

  I approached the table where the crowd stood and moved to the side so I could see. When I got a clear view, I saw two girls sitting behind the table, Kelli Taylor and Justine Hanson, the co-queen bees of the school. Athletic, beautiful, straight A students, these girls were pretty much the poster children for perfection. In front of them sat boxes of candy bars they were selling for the fundraiser.

  Informational flyers and pictures of Olivia scattered the table. There was even a large framed photo of her junior volleyball picture taken just weeks before her death. She stood with a confident stance in her number 17 volleyball jersey with the ball resting on her hip. Her blonde hair was straightened, and her dark brown irises made her eyes appear larger than they should. She looked more like an angel than a student. It’s sad, I thought, that she didn’t live long enough to finish the season—or even to graduate for that matter.

  I grabbed one of the flyers from the stack and began reading.

  Fundraising for Burn Victims: In Memory of Olivia Owen

  By Justine Hanson

  Olivia Owen was once a loving daughter, student, and athlete. She was a straight-A student who set an example for her fellow classmates by becoming an active member of the student council and the community service club. Her athletic abilities surpassed those of her fellow junior-year volleyball players despite her asthma, and if she would have made it to the end of the season, she would have undoubtedly claimed the title of MVP. Olivia was a spectacular human being, volunteering when she could, helping the community with things like the Peyton Springs Halloween Festival and the Fourth of July Parade.

  But more than anything, Olivia was my best friend. I knew her and loved her like a sister, and it pains my heart each day to know that her life was cut short at only age 17. When Olivia forgot to blow out a candle before she fell asleep, her curtains caught fire and she suffered an asthma attack before she could escape the smoke or find her inhaler. I can’t imagine the physical pain she must have endured that night.

  Because of this tragic tale, Olivia’s family and friends decided to honor her life by helping raise money for other burn victims and their families who have survived house fires. Today, on the anniversary of Olivia’s death, we ask you to contribute by purchasing one of our fundraising products (candy bars, baked goods, and other donated items) or by simply dropping $1 into one of our donation jars located throughout the school.

  Olivia’s mother and her friends thank you for any and all contributions, and we hope to continue raising money for families like Olivia’s. Thank you, and God bless!

  “What’s it say?”

  I jumped. I didn’t realize Emma had followed me to the table.

  “It’s just a flyer explaining the fundraiser,” I told her.

  Olivia’s story was sad. I felt like I couldn’t just leave the flyer there, one that told her story to the world. I wanted to contribute in some way, but I didn’t have any money on me, so I simply folded the paper up and slid it in my pocket, hoping that would show I cared.

  The thought of death crushed my heart, so I kept my eyes down, avoiding gazes so I wouldn’t tear up. I didn’t know Olivia that well, but since we were both on the volleyball team—although she was Varsity when I was on the freshman team—I’d spoken to her a few times.

  I blinked back tears as I thought of Olivia’s tragedy. The whole idea of death brought a lump to my throat and resurfaced memories that I’d thought I’d gotten over. Emma rubbed my back to comfort me because she knew the subject of death was a touchy one.

  As I stared at the floor, afraid to look up for fear that tears might start falling, an invisible force—something unknown willing me to look—pulled my chin up. My gaze fell upon the empty hallway to the right of the commons area where students hadn’t yet been released to roam for the day.

  In the middle of the hallway stood a tall, beautiful girl with blonde hair and dark brown eyes. She looked at me across the distance, her eyes full of emotion. I couldn’t pinpoint exactly what she was trying to say with her expression, except that I knew it was urgent.

  As soon as I spotted her, the bell rang, announcing that students could now go to their lockers and prepare for class. The crowd dispersed from the commons into the hallway and blocked my view of the girl. The students hurried down the hall as if they didn’t see her. I kept my eye on where she was standing, but I didn’t see her again.

  “Crystal.” Emma’s voice seemed far off, a distant hum in my confusion.

  The faintness I felt just moments ago returned. My heart pounded in my ears, and for a second, my knees felt unstable. I gripped the edge of the fundraising table for support.

  Emma snapped her fingers in front of my face. “Crystal,” she said again as her voice came back into focus.

  I was suddenly whipped back into rea
lity, dazed. “Wh—what?”

  “Are you okay?” Emma asked with a tone of serious concern. “You look like you’ve seen a ghost.”

  I let the statement sink in for a moment. “Yeah,” I said. But I wasn’t answering her initial question. I was agreeing with her latter statement.

  But I didn’t see a ghost. I couldn’t have. An odd sensation stirred as a chill spread from my spine to the end of my fingertips. This was the same type of chill I used to get when I had my imaginary friend Eva over for tea before I started kindergarten. I’m imagining things, I told myself, mostly as reassurance.

  But I had seen her clear as day. Olivia Owen had stood in the hallway and begged for my help with nothing but an expression. Yet how could that be when she died a year ago?

  Emma took my arm and led me to our lockers as I silently assured myself I wasn’t crazy.

  2

  As we neared our lockers, I rationalized what I had seen.

  Whatever bug I’m catching sure is making my imagination run wild.

  I took a deep breath, willing my bad mood to go away, but a tension headache was already forming. I tried putting Olivia out of my head. Easier said than done.

  We arrived at our first class, which was my favorite class of the day because it was the only one where Emma, Derek, and I had class together. Plus, Mr. Bailey always left us to our textbooks and let us talk with our group. Needless to say, there was more goofing around than working on geometry homework.

  I walked in with a frown on my face. Derek noticed immediately. I moved my desk so that it was facing my two best friends, forming a triangle so that we could get to work.

  Derek shifted in his chair and looked up at me. “What’s wrong?” he asked gently, obviously concerned.

  “It’s just not a good day,” I murmured. With that, I actually opened up my textbook and began reading.

  I could see Derek’s expression out of the corner of my eye as he looked to Emma for an explanation. She simply lifted her shoulders and opened her own textbook, but I could still see her stealing glances at him.

  I apologized for my behavior when the bell rang, but I still couldn’t shake off my mood. I seemed to walk through the hall in a daze, blinking back tears and cursing the knot that was forming in my chest. Was I getting sick, or was it something else altogether?

  When lunch rolled around, I quietly found my spot next to Derek and Emma at our usual table. We normally sat with the other JV volleyball players but mostly kept our conversations to ourselves. Derek was freely welcome at our table. Last year when he tore his ACL in basketball, Emma and I begged him to join the team as our manager.

  Besides, he didn’t really have the typical basketball player physique. He was shorter than most of the other players, although his attractive bright blue eyes and curly brown hair made him blend in with the other good-looking guys at school. He hung out with Emma and me more than any other guy, though.

  Emma and Derek were arguing next to me about some issue I didn’t care to weigh in on, so I blocked them out as I picked through my food. When I lost interest in it and glanced up, I noticed the long table set up against the far wall of the commons.

  Kelli and Justine sat behind it, still selling candy bars and taking donations. I watched in awe as they ran their campaign and encouraged passing students to purchase a candy bar or to spare a few pennies. The way they held themselves bit at my own self-esteem.

  Our school wasn’t very big. In a small town like Peyton Springs, you couldn’t expect a large high school. Everyone knew everyone else here. It was so small that some of our team members—like Emma—had to double up on JV and Varsity.

  I had talked to Justine and Kelli in volleyball once or twice, but they still intimidated me. Not only were they seniors and at the top of the social hierarchy, but they were gorgeous. Kelli was petite like me, but she’d had more time to fill out, and her gorgeous smile reflected her confidence in her beauty. Justine had a similar smile painted on her face, but her body was one to really be jealous of. She had long, slim model legs that she kept in shape with volleyball and weight training, and her tan skin and shiny dark hair had me cursing my pale skin and plain dirty blonde locks.

  I had zero curves to speak of and a pencil-shaped body that puberty had not yet had a chance to fill out. I was willing to bet I was the only girl in my grade who hadn’t started her period yet. Granted, I was one of the younger students in the sophomore class with a summer birthday. I was nearly a year younger than Emma, who already had her driver’s license, but that wasn’t any excuse for the universe to slow down the onset of my menstrual cycle.

  I wanted to hate these girls. I really did. As much as their mature bodies and full confidence bit at my self-esteem, I couldn’t hate them. They’d always been friendly to me. I didn’t have any legitimate reason to hate them.

  I was still watching them when Kelli’s boyfriend, Nate, came up to her from behind and embraced her. She flinched at first in surprise. Then she tilted her head back to nuzzle against his shoulder. From this distance, they seemed to make a great pair. They were the designated “It” couple of the school, the two everyone thought would last long after high school. They looked good together, too, with her small but athletic frame and his tall, muscular body. Their blonde hair and blue eyes complemented each other. I couldn’t help but take note of how I’d like a boyfriend like that.

  While admiring the girls, my mind thought back to Olivia. What would it be like if she were still here? Would she be sitting at that table with them fundraising for some other good cause?

  My thoughts drifted back to those I was trying desperately to suppress. Did I really see Olivia this morning?

  No, I thought, poking at my spaghetti. I was just stressed and had an image of her face fresh in my mind. I have a wild imagination, I rationalized. I don’t really know what happened this morning. I’m just remembering it wrong, I told myself.

  With all these thoughts racing around in my head, I hadn’t noticed how much time had passed. The buzz of the bell pulled me from my reverie, and I sprang up in surprise. I pushed through the crowd and dumped my tray of uneaten food. Before I let it all fall into the garbage, I grabbed the piece of garlic bread and shoved it in my mouth. I knew if I didn’t eat something, I’d be curled up with hunger pains before our volleyball game that night.

  The rest of the day continued in a haze, my mood lifting only so slightly in band class, where I fully enjoyed playing first-chair clarinet. When the final bell rang, my stomach called out to me, clearly upset that I didn’t eat my lunch. “Oh, shush,” I scolded my belly, which earned me a few odd stares.

  I shoved my notebook in my locker and took several deep breaths. I needed to calm down if I was going to do well at the game tonight. Our JV team hadn’t lost all season, and there was only a week of games left. I wasn’t about to lose one because of a bad day, which wasn’t honestly all that bad anyway. Gosh, what was up with me?

  “Ready?” Emma said cheerfully as we walked toward the locker room to gather our equipment.

  “Ready as I’ll ever be, I guess.” I gave her a smile in hopes that it would cheer me up.

  3

  When we got on the bus, I quickly claimed one of the empty seats near the back and placed my book bag on my lap. Emma sat next to me the same time Derek popped his head up over the seats at the front of the bus as he climbed the stairs.

  “There are my two favorite girls.” He smiled, taking the seat in front of us. “Chin up, Crystal.”

  I knew he was trying to get me to smile, but the way he touched my chin as he said this simply annoyed me further.

  “Knees and nose,” I said, pointing to the front of the bus while repeating the phrase the teachers used to tell us in elementary school. “Knees and nose to the front,” they’d tell us for safety reasons.

  Derek backed away from me with his eyebrows raised. “Someone woke up on the wrong side of the bed.”

  I glared at him in warning. I loved Derek like
a brother, but I wasn’t in the mood for his bubbly attitude. “Yeah,” I snapped.

  He held his hands up in surrender. He turned away from me and pointed his knees and nose to the front. “Well, it’s obviously someone’s time of the month,” he muttered, intentionally saying it loud enough for me to hear.

  I rolled my eyes while silently thinking to myself that I wish it’d be my time so that I could finally grow into my body.

  “Are you okay?” Emma said when we were on the road traveling over the flat terrain of southern Minnesota.

  I tore my gaze from the window to look at her. “Yeah. I just . . . I don’t know. I feel weird. I just woke up in a bad mood, and it’s been following me around all day.”

  “I know what you mean.” She rolled her eyes. “Talk about being a teenage girl.”

  Derek popped his head back up over the seat. “And what exactly is that like?”

  “Knees and nose,” Emma scolded. I laughed as they teased each other, and they joined along in my giggles.

  “Maybe I just need a girl’s night,” I said once our conversation was private again.

  “Sure. Tomorrow night?”

  “Yeah. It’s your turn to host, Emma.”

  Emma crinkled her nose, which made her look more like a chipmunk than normal. She ran a hand through her dark curls. “My house? Are you sure? I mean, Andrea is way cooler than my parents.”

  “My mom’s great, but I really like your house. You have way more fun things to do. Can we please stay at your house?”

  She seemed reluctant, but she finally agreed.

  It didn’t take long to reach our opposing team’s school. Coach Amy must have not noticed my bad mood because she put me in during the first set.

  This was certainly not a good day. I bent my knees, ready as the serves came over the net, but I felt so disoriented that I couldn’t seem to hit the ball just right. I knew where the ball was going to go before it got there, but my motor skills took a nose dive.